I am miserable. I hate that you have so much control over my life right now. I absolutely will not and cannot be happy until I get my life back with you. I cry pretty much every day, especially so this morning. I hate it here. I miss you terribly and I wish you'd let me come back already. You're not going to be hurt by me again so you may as well let me start making it up to you early. You should let both of us be happy because to be quite honest, I'm not sure why I get up in the mornings anymore. I've got nothing to look forward to each day, absolutely nothing. It's disheartening. I cry a lot, and just as much, I feel empty inside, so much so that I can't even be sad. I just sit without an emotion, opinion, or thought in my head because I feel so void of everything. I try to do the things that make me happy or I try to push it out of my head, but nothing makes me happy right now. I just sit here. I'm in a really bad way and I need you to understand that. I want a reason to get up in the morning, I want to make it up to you, I want to be with you and make you happy, because if I can do that again, then I'll be ecstatic and I'll feel like there's a purpose for why I'm here. Right now, I've got nothing. Please help me.
[17:15] Sneeky Squared: Brizzity?!
[17:15] nee0000007: (auto-response from nee000007) Man=5
Devil=6
and God is seven
[17:16] nee000007: yizzity
[17:16] Sneeky Squared: Hellizzity!
[17:17] nee000007: hey
[17:17] nee000007: whats up?
[17:17] nee000007: don't be upset either.,
[17:18] nee000007: also get up in the morning cause you'll get bedsores.
[17:18] Sneeky Squared:
[17:18] Sneeky Squared: Okay
[17:18] nee000007: k
[17:18] nee000007: but i have to go to band practice.
[17:18] Sneeky Squared: ~sigh~
[17:19] Sneeky Squared: Okay, well you should call me later.
[17:19] nee000007: happy easter, ps
[17:19] Sneeky Squared: Happy easter to you!
[17:19] Sneeky Squared: I hope you have a fantastic day.
[17:20] Sneeky Squared: <3
[17:20] nee000007: yes ma'am
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