[11:08] Patrick: hi
[11:10] Sneeky Squared: Hello!
[11:10] Patrick: and how are you this morning?
[11:10] Sneeky Squared: Sleepy.
[11:10] Sneeky Squared: Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand...etc
[11:11] Patrick: haha
[11:11] Patrick: did you at least have some sex last night?
[11:11] Sneeky Squared: I didn't.
[11:11] Patrick: that's terrible!
[11:11] Patrick: why not
[11:11] Patrick: i figured you were about to burst
[11:12] Sneeky Squared: With you, yes.
[11:12] Patrick: well, i couldn't stop thinking about you all night, and i was really sad i had to leave you
[11:12] Sneeky Squared: I couldn't stop thinking about you either...and then I dreamt about you all night again, and you're the only thing i've thought about this morning.
[11:12] Sneeky Squared: I'm exausted.
[11:13] Patrick: haha aww you need a break
[11:13] Patrick: well at least your friend is coming in town today and you probably won't be thinking about me when you're with her
[11:13] Sneeky Squared: I'd rather see you
[11:13] Patrick:
[11:14] Sneeky Squared: Also, she said she wanted me to kiss her and that she probably would ask more than once. So ugh to that.
[11:14] Patrick: you don't want to kiss her or you don't want the temptation?
[11:14] Sneeky Squared: I don't want to kiss her.
[11:14] Patrick: oh
[11:15] Sneeky Squared: There's absolutely no temptation with her.
[11:15] Patrick: is this the girl that's in love with you?
[11:15] Sneeky Squared: Yeah
[11:15] Patrick: you have me veeeery tempted
[11:15] Sneeky Squared: YOU have ME veeeeeery tempted.
[11:15] Sneeky Squared: You've done something terrible to me.
[11:15] Sneeky Squared: My stomach was all twisted up in knots this morning. I couldn't even eat
[11:15] Sneeky Squared: !
[11:16] Patrick: oh man, i don't want to make you unhealthy
[11:16] Sneeky Squared: Haha, no I'll be fine. But jeez. You didn't have to do all that.
[11:16] Patrick: i probably need to go eat something soon
[11:16] Patrick: haha do all what?
[11:16] Sneeky Squared: All...of this.
[11:17] Patrick: i take blame for the first part, but everything yesterday was, as much as it sucked, amazing
[11:17] Sneeky Squared: Indeed.
[11:17] Patrick: i'd rather have a bunch of days of that with you with no sex as opposed to just having sex with anyone
[11:18] Sneeky Squared: Wow, that's something.
[11:18] Sneeky Squared: =D
[11:18] Patrick: it is definitely something
[11:18] Sneeky Squared: I don't know...
[11:18] Sneeky Squared: I feel like I NEED to kiss you and be close with you before you leave.
[11:18] Sneeky Squared: I may have to.
[11:19] Patrick: no!!!!! we can't do that to brett though
[11:19] Sneeky Squared: I want to soak up as much as possible while I've got a chance, though. =(
[11:19] Patrick: isn't that evil?
[11:19] Sneeky Squared: It's certainly not good.
[11:19] Patrick: i know, and i want to soak a lot of you up
[11:20] Patrick: all last night i was 90% mad at myself for kissing you
[11:20] Patrick: and about 10% that was still happy that we didn't
[11:20] Patrick: but i'm afraid you're wearing down my defenses quickly
[11:21] Sneeky Squared: Haha, well mine are gone, if they ever existed.
[11:21] Patrick: you are just so damn sexy
[11:22] Patrick: and last night i wanted to just be like "ok josh, enjoy guitar, we're gonna go somewhere else"
[11:22] Sneeky Squared: Oh jeez, me too.
[11:22] Patrick: i hate having to be secret
[11:22] Sneeky Squared: I wanted everyone to leave.
[11:22] Patrick: and it kills me everytime brett kisses you comfortably
[11:23] Patrick: i wish i could do that
[11:23] Sneeky Squared: Aww, I'm sorry. But I wish you could do it too.
[11:24] Patrick: in other news, i'm wearing that blankey you wore, and it a) does smell like dogs interesting enough and b) has some of your hair on it
[11:25] Patrick: blanket* sorry i swear i don't say blankey
[11:25] Sneeky Squared: I'm sure it's all over your apartment.
[11:25] Sneeky Squared: Haha, I didn't even notice.
[11:25] Patrick: well good
[11:25] Patrick: i have an idea
[11:25] Patrick: you should come lay on me some more
[11:25] Sneeky Squared: I'd love to.
[11:26] Sneeky Squared: S'all I've wanted to do since...well since you made me stop.
[11:26] Patrick: believe i didn't want to but i was way to tempted
[11:26] Patrick: not to mention the perfectly times phone call
[11:27] Patrick: timed*
[11:27] Sneeky Squared: Theyd id that on purpose
[11:27] Patrick: christ, sorry. i'm still waking up
[11:27] Patrick: haha oh yeah? you think they knew what we were doing?
[11:27] Sneeky Squared: Naa
[11:28] Patrick: damn, cause if they already knew we could just go at it
[11:28] Patrick: i mean if they know already, no sense in holding back
[11:28] Sneeky Squared: Very true, but I assure you, they don't know.
[11:28] Sneeky Squared: If Brett thought so, he'd say something.
[11:28] Patrick: oh really?
[11:29] Sneeky Squared: I think maybe Greg may think so because he sounded a little curt with me on the phone yesterday, but I don't think Brett really believes that we're fucking or anything.
[11:29] Patrick: hmm i see
[11:30] Patrick: well it's just really hard for me to keep my hands or hands off you
[11:30] Patrick: and i was sure somebody was going to pick up on that
[11:30] Sneeky Squared: I don't want you to!
[11:30] Sneeky Squared: Me too.
[11:30] Sneeky Squared: I don't know if Josh knows about anything. He did point at me and give me a "behave" look yesterday when I was about to leave with you the first time, but I don't know if that was a joke or what.
[11:31] Patrick: i guess it's a good thing video games are addictive
[11:31] Sneeky Squared: Very good
[11:31] Patrick: haha i didn't notice that
[11:31] Sneeky Squared: He sure did.
[11:31] Patrick: well you behaved yourself
[11:31] Sneeky Squared: Haha, I've been getting warnings left and right from everyone since I started talking to you.
[11:31] Sneeky Squared: Pshhhht. No I didn't.
[11:31] Patrick: i'm not dangerous
[11:31] Patrick: hahaha well you faked it
[11:31] Sneeky Squared: Yes you are. I want you very very badly.
[11:32] Sneeky Squared: I faked what?
[11:32] Patrick: behaving yourself
[11:32] Patrick: as far as anyone else knows you've been behaving yourself
[11:32] Sneeky Squared: True.
[11:32] Sneeky Squared: I guess I'm a great actor, nay, liar.
[11:32] Sneeky Squared: =(
[11:32] Patrick: and you actually did behave yourself quite well yesterday
[11:32] Sneeky Squared: I was straddling you.
[11:32] Patrick: aww you're not a liar
[11:32] Patrick: yeah but we could have been naked
[11:33] Patrick: you'd still be a liar if you denied these feelings, you'd be lying to yourself which is worse i think
[11:33] Sneeky Squared: Haha, well taken girls aren't supposed to straddle other people, I'm pretty sure. Or kiss their neck or grind on eachother.
[11:33] Patrick: this is all true
[11:34] Patrick: but damn, you're really good at it
[11:34] Patrick: and there was a nice chemistry
[11:34] Sneeky Squared: There was.
[11:34] Patrick: at some point nobody can be held accountable for chemistry.
[11:34] Sneeky Squared: It was fantastic.
[11:34] Patrick: i've definitely never had that much fun holding myself back for that long
[11:35] Sneeky Squared: Haha, I thought that was terrible.
[11:35] Patrick: it was
[11:35] Sneeky Squared: I wanted to attack you very badly.
[11:35] Patrick: but it's also better than talking to you on the phone
[11:35] Sneeky Squared: So much so that I could barely speak.
[11:35] Patrick: smelling your hair, feeling your skin
[11:35] Patrick: all positives i would trade in to do again today if i could
[11:35] Patrick: annnnd i like you when you're not on high alert
[11:36] Patrick: excuse me, high high alert
[11:36] Sneeky Squared: Haha
[11:36] Sneeky Squared: Good.
[11:36] Patrick:
[11:37] Patrick: and thank you for the drawing
[11:37] Sneeky Squared: You're welcome.
[11:37] Patrick: do you remember how to play guitar at all?
[11:37] Sneeky Squared: Maybe
[11:37] Patrick: haha well that's a good enough answer for me
[11:37] Sneeky Squared: Probably
[11:37] Patrick: and that one's even better
[11:37] Sneeky Squared: I liked how close you were to me then
[11:37] Patrick: i'm tired, come cuddle with me
[11:38] Patrick: me too
[11:38] Patrick: i'm scared of how close i'm allowed to get to you with others around
[11:38] Sneeky Squared: Yeah, that's probably very unsafe and completely stupid of us.
[11:39] Sneeky Squared: But i don't want to stop touching you either.
[11:39] Patrick: me neither, so it seems we did the best we could with the situation
[11:39] Patrick: but it
[11:40] Patrick: 's not like we're terrible people or like this has happened for awhile
[11:40] Patrick: i'll go back to atlanta and you'll probably forget about me
[11:40] Sneeky Squared: I don't think so
[11:41] Patrick: well you should, otherwise you'll just go crazy. plus at least you have brett
[11:41] Sneeky Squared: To be honest, I don't feel like it's wrong. Everyone else would, sure, but you and Brett aren't even comparable and what I've got with you is so ridiculously different. I can't quite explain it, but I feel like I should be able to be with you as I please and it not be wrong.
[11:41] Patrick: well that's the kind of world i'd like to live in
[11:41] Patrick: unfortunately, everyone would be pissed
[11:41] Sneeky Squared: They would be.
[11:42] Sneeky Squared: That's fucking retarded.
[11:42] Sneeky Squared: So there.
[11:42] Patrick: well put
[11:42] Patrick: but it still doesn't help the way i feel about you
[11:42] Patrick: or the way i'm starting to feel about you either
[11:42] Patrick: because yesterday got me feeling a lot more new things about you
[11:43] Patrick: which seems to happen every time i talk to you
[11:43] Sneeky Squared: Good!
[11:43] Sneeky Squared: I think I've got the same situation with you.
[11:43] Patrick: good!
[11:43] Sneeky Squared: It's really something if I can open up with you the way that I have. I have a terribly hard time getting close to people, especially physically and obviously I had no problems last night.
[11:44] Patrick: i really wish i could express how much you make me feel cared about
[11:44] Patrick: and how huge that makes me feel
[11:45] Sneeky Squared: Well I'm glad. I like you a lot.
[11:45] Sneeky Squared: And that's a huge understatment.
[11:45] Patrick:
[11:46] Sneeky Squared: I definitely think I'm on the way to loving you. And I hope that doesn't sound like an overly attached, crazy, typical female because it's pretty early. I can see how that could come off as such.
[11:46] Sneeky Squared: I actually debated on saying anything at all. Wouldn't want to scare you off, but I must say what I must say.
[11:46] Patrick: doesn't
[11:46] Patrick: and i don't scare easily
[11:47] Patrick: and i think that's very special what you just said, not scary at all
[11:47] Sneeky Squared: Good, that's what I was hoping for!
[11:47] Patrick: however the only thing that scares me is what to do about it
[11:47] Patrick: because i know the answer, and it's so unsatisfying
[11:47] Sneeky Squared: Very much so.
[11:48] Patrick: this is like my personal greek tragedy
[11:48] Patrick: i have no idea what to say
[11:48] Patrick: but come here
[11:49] Patrick: or
[11:49] Patrick: cuddle with me
[11:49] Patrick: or kiss me
[11:49] Sneeky Squared: I waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant to!
[11:49] Patrick: or come shoot time lapse with me again
[11:49] Patrick: sigh
[11:50] Sneeky Squared: I like you. =D
[11:50] Patrick: i like you too
[11:50] Patrick: and i mean that
[11:50] Patrick: it's not just a response because that's what you said
[11:50] Sneeky Squared: Haha, gotcha.
[11:50] Patrick: i hate when people just return compliments like that right away like "back at cha"
[11:50] Sneeky Squared: Me too.
[11:50] Sneeky Squared: I refuse to do that.
[11:50] Patrick: this is NOT a back at cha kinda way
[11:51] Patrick: i noticed
[11:51] Sneeky Squared: Haha, OKAY!
[11:51] Patrick: and liked it
[11:51] Sneeky Squared: likeD?
[11:51] Patrick: yeah
[11:51] Sneeky Squared: 'splain
[11:52] Patrick: i was trying but i can't figure out how to spell opportunities
[11:52] Patrick: oh there, i did it
[11:52] Sneeky Squared: Okay, go!
[11:52] Patrick: anyways, there were plenty of opportunities yesterday where you could have given a back at cha response but didn't
[11:52] Patrick: you always seem to let the compliment settle and really appreciated it
[11:53] Patrick: and that in turn makes me feel appreciated
[11:53] Sneeky Squared: I did.
[11:53] Patrick: and it's just little things like that
[11:53] Patrick: that makes you great
[11:53] Sneeky Squared: Thanks!
[11:53] Patrick: you are very welcome
[11:53] Sneeky Squared: I want to see you today.
[11:53] Sneeky Squared: I also want to tell everyone else to fuck off and leave.
[11:54] Patrick: well, when are you guys leaving?
[11:54] Patrick: hahaha
[11:54] Patrick: there's that fiery side
[11:54] Sneeky Squared: I don't know. Caroline may have planned on staying at my house tonight. I actually don't know where else she'd go. I also think it'd be fucked up to leave her tonight when she had this planned for weeks.
[11:54] Sneeky Squared: So I just decided that we're leaving tomorrow.
[11:55] Sneeky Squared: =D
[11:55] Patrick: haha nice
[11:55] Patrick: well are you guys going to be hanging out tonight?
[11:55] Sneeky Squared: I imagine so.
[11:55] Sneeky Squared: But that's not the kind of seeing you that I want.
[11:55] Patrick: maybe we should play strip poker
[11:55] Patrick: or truth or dare
[11:55] Patrick: i know
[11:55] Patrick: me neither
[11:55] Sneeky Squared: Haha, truth or dare is so gay. We played that in the van on tour.
[11:55] Patrick: i assume brett doesn't have work
[11:55] Sneeky Squared: He doesn't.
[11:56] Patrick: well if i got to kiss you it'd be worth it
[11:56] Sneeky Squared: He did, but he quit.
[11:56] Patrick: so then i guess we can't really get together
[11:56] Patrick: yeah i remember
[11:56] Patrick: or we could buy a shit ton of weed, smoke it and convince him to share you
[11:57] Sneeky Squared: Haha, I think it'd take a lot more than getting high for him to do that.
[11:57] Patrick: well that's what i was afraid of
[11:57] Sneeky Squared: We could invest in some roofies.
[11:57] Patrick: and i really don't want to share you
[11:57] Sneeky Squared: Knock everyone out so we can have at it.
[11:57] Patrick: hahaha that's the trick
[11:58] Sneeky Squared: I wish I didn't have to be shared...or...ya know, this.
[11:58] Patrick: haha yeah that would be nice
[11:58] Patrick: i guess there's a reason all the good ones are taken
[11:58] Patrick: it's because you're so good
[11:59] Sneeky Squared: Well if I'm so good then I should be able to make up my own rules...like God.
[11:59] Patrick: i wouldn't want to let go of you
[11:59] Patrick: if only
[11:59] Patrick: this is why we should live on an island of nakedness and bartering
[11:59] Patrick: it would be the perfect society
[12:00] Sneeky Squared: That'd be pretty nice.
[12:00] Sneeky Squared: I'm almost tempted to tell everyone to fuck off today...except nicer.
[12:00] Patrick: haha and how would you do that?
[12:00] Sneeky Squared: "I'm going to go hang out." And then do it and invite no one.
[12:01] Patrick: and what about brett?
[12:01] Sneeky Squared: "I'm going to go hang out"
[12:01] Patrick: and wouldn't it be weird if i came to pick you up?
[12:01] Patrick: or if you got dropped off here, either way is kinda...i dunno...weird don't you think?
[12:01] Sneeky Squared: Friends do that all the time.
[12:02] Patrick: this is true, but i'm sure they know something
[12:02] Sneeky Squared: Maybe
[12:02] Patrick: we went from never talking to me leaving, to coming back and hanging out two days straight?
[12:02] Sneeky Squared: Haha, we've developed a nice, healthy friendship quickly.
[12:02] Patrick: it must look extremely umm.... soem word i can't think of
[12:03] Patrick: yes we have but i doubt anyone else sees that
[12:03] Patrick: cause even without the sexual tension, i love conversing with you
[12:03] Sneeky Squared: Well that's where we correct them.
[12:03] Patrick: it's never dull and i don't think i've met anyone quite like you before
[12:03] Sneeky Squared: I like talking to you too. It's boatloads of fun.
[12:03] Sneeky Squared: And you talk a lot, which is good, because I don't talk that much.
[12:04] Patrick: i think you talk more than i thought you would
[12:04] Sneeky Squared: I'm definitely not as quiet as I am at Josh's or something with several people.
[12:04] Patrick: this is true
[12:04] Sneeky Squared: I'm also working on being slightly less quiet, but that's beside the point.
[12:04] Patrick: I WANT TO RUN MY HANDS ALL OVER YOU!
[12:05] Sneeky Squared: I want you too1
[12:05] Patrick: i cannot stop thinking of you
[12:05] Sneeky Squared: I thought about it all morning
[12:05] Patrick: or just to have you breath on my neck a little again
[12:05] Patrick: everything you do is sexy
[12:06] Patrick: i like that you're trying to be less quiet too (not to ignore that statement)
[12:06] Sneeky Squared: Ooooooooooooooooooooh jeez. Patrick Patrick Patrick. What am I to do?
[12:06] Patrick: kiss me
[12:07] Sneeky Squared: Surely
[12:07] Sneeky Squared: If you'd let me.
[12:07] Patrick: i wouldn't
[12:07] Patrick: but i want to
[12:07] Patrick: this is very difficult
[12:07] Sneeky Squared: I don't know how you've got (sort of) so much self control.
[12:07] Patrick: haha i love the sort of
[12:08] Sneeky Squared: Your hands dont' really keep to themselves, but everything else has been pretty okay.
[12:08] Patrick: i can't help it
[12:08] Patrick: i love my hands
[12:08] Patrick: i love touching you
[12:08] Patrick: you feel.... i just can't stop touching you, or at least i wish i didn't have to
[12:09] Sneeky Squared: I'm gonna have to get on top of you again, I think.
[12:09] Patrick: mmmm that sounds perfect
[12:09] Sneeky Squared: And do as I please.
[12:10] Patrick: you'll have to hold me down to stop me from stopping you
[12:10] Patrick: which kinda sounds nice to
[12:11] Patrick: sigh
[12:11] Patrick: this is like the worst carousel i've ever been on
[12:12] Patrick: we just keep going in circles but i'm not any closer to having you
[12:12] Sneeky Squared: ~sigh~
[12:12] Sneeky Squared: Why didn't you come 2 1/2 years earlier?
[12:13] Patrick: haha i wouldn't have been the same and neither would you
[12:13] Sneeky Squared: Haha, then I suppose I'd be having this conversation with Brett then, eh?
[12:13] Patrick: i doubt you'd like me 2 1/2 years ago
[12:13] Patrick: this is true
[12:13] Sneeky Squared: Very true. I probably would have required you to have a vagina.
[12:13] Patrick: hahaha
[12:13] Sneeky Squared: Okay, well.
[12:13] Sneeky Squared: This is dumb.
[12:14] Patrick: yes it is
[12:14] Patrick: and frustrating
[12:14] Patrick: but mostly dumb
[12:14] Sneeky Squared: mmmhmmm
[12:14] Patrick: you have such a sweet face
[12:15] Sneeky Squared: I like yours a whole bunch too.
[12:15] Sneeky Squared: I think you're dreamy.
[12:15] Sneeky Squared: Hahahahaha
[12:15] Sneeky Squared: Haha, sorry for being gay.
[12:15] Patrick: haha that's one of the nicest compliments i think a girl can give a guy
[12:15] Patrick: i have no idea why but thank you
[12:15] Sneeky Squared: Well I meant it.
[12:15] Sneeky Squared: I thought it last night and laughed a little to myself.
[12:16] Patrick: that's very cute
[12:16] Patrick: i like how you are really sexy and hot and fiery but you can still be cute at the same time
[12:17] Sneeky Squared: Yeah, I'm pretty much perfect.
[12:17] Sneeky Squared:
[12:17] Patrick: haha
[12:17] Patrick: and modest
[12:17] Patrick:
[12:17] Sneeky Squared: That too.
[12:18] Patrick: and i think i just found the picture of you grabbing rachel's tit
[12:18] Sneeky Squared: I'm surprised there are no Cierra/Rachel makeout pictures.
[12:19] Patrick: i just saw a triple kiss with brett involved
[12:19] Sneeky Squared: I think there are 3 way makeouts between Rachel, Brett, and I and then some other girl.
[12:19] Sneeky Squared: Ah, yes.
[12:19] Patrick: that's bullshit, if you can kiss her you should be able to kiss me
[12:19] Sneeky Squared: Well that was WITH Brett.
[12:19] Sneeky Squared: That's a little different.
[12:19] Patrick: let's just all get shit faced and then any thing's excusable
[12:19] Sneeky Squared: Or...it's the same and I'll just kiss you.
[12:20] Patrick: hahaha i like that reasoning
[12:20] Sneeky Squared: Haha, I don't thikn that'd work for you. They already know you like me. With Rachel, it was just purely...sexual. I actually don't see how that's any better.
[12:21] Patrick: this can be sexual
[12:21] Patrick: i can just want to fuck you
[12:21] Patrick: i mean, i do
[12:21] Patrick: just not JUST that i guess is the problem area
[12:21] Sneeky Squared: Mmmm. I want you to fuck me.
[12:21] Patrick: i could hear you telling me that while i was falling asleep last night
[12:22] Patrick: god i'm going to have to get off again here in a little
[12:22] Sneeky Squared: You've gotten me wet about 90 bazillion times in the past 2 days.
[12:22] Patrick: well i'm sorry i can't act on it
[12:22] Patrick: i wish i could
[12:22] Patrick: i reeeeeally wish i could
[12:23] Sneeky Squared: Ugh.
[12:23] Patrick: this is becoming unhealthy
[12:23] Sneeky Squared: Is it/
[12:23] Patrick: it's enough to drive someone mad
[12:24] Sneeky Squared: Yeah, I'm feeling pretty crazy.
[12:24] Sneeky Squared: I can't really take it.
[12:24] Patrick: mmm i can't stop thinking about sex with you now
[12:25] Sneeky Squared: Yeeeeeeeeah...
[12:27] Patrick: i'm at a loss of words
[12:27] Patrick: i'm all thoughts and wishes at this point
[12:27] Sneeky Squared: Well I think we've covered it all about 40,000 times over.
[12:27] Patrick: agreed
[12:28] Sneeky Squared: Now I'm just more having an internal conflict here.
[12:28] Patrick: internal conflict between what two things?
[12:28] Sneeky Squared: Being good, which is bitter sweet. Or doing whatever I want to you, which is also bitter sweet.
[12:28] Patrick: mm i see
[12:29] Sneeky Squared: Because really now, I think if I just had at you, I could make you give in.
[12:29] Sneeky Squared:
[12:29] Patrick: you'd like to think that
[12:29] Patrick:
[12:29] Sneeky Squared: I already got you further than you meant to go.
[12:29] Patrick: i'm still a man of my word so you would have to try hard, and i don't if i could promise anything then
[12:29] Patrick: this is true
[12:30] Patrick: but still. i want to be with you
[12:30] Patrick: i want to have you
[12:30] Patrick: and i don't want to have to think about brett while i am
[12:30] Patrick: and that sucks
[12:30] Patrick: because i'm trying to be good, but god damn
[12:31] Sneeky Squared: Yeah.
[12:31] Sneeky Squared: Yes yes yes.
[12:31] Sneeky Squared: Pshht.
[12:31] Patrick: this is highly unfortunate
[12:32] Sneeky Squared: You give up easily.
[12:32] Patrick: give up?
[12:33] Patrick: how am i giving up?
[12:33] Sneeky Squared: I suppose I shouldn't have said that. Scratch that.
[12:33] Sneeky Squared: Poor wording.
[12:33] Patrick: ok
[12:33] Patrick: well what were you trying to say?
[12:33] Sneeky Squared: I'm not really sure.
[12:33] Sneeky Squared: Not that.
[12:35] Sneeky Squared: I think I've made up my mind. I'm going to kiss you.
[12:36] Patrick: really?
[12:36] Patrick: how did you come to this solution?
[12:36] Sneeky Squared: I want to, I think it'd feel great, so I'm going to.
[12:36] Patrick: and when are you supposed to get this chance
[12:36] Sneeky Squared: Well that's provided I have a chance.
[12:36] Patrick: ahh i see
[12:37] Patrick: so if there ever is a chance, am i supposed to let you or still be the good guy and stop you?
[12:37] Sneeky Squared: You're supposed to let me.
[12:37] Patrick: sold
[12:37] Sneeky Squared: That was easy.
[12:38] Patrick: yeah well, if you've made it up in your mind that you want to i respect that decision you've come to
[12:38] Patrick: who am i to stop you
[12:38] Patrick: not to mention i really want to kiss you
[12:38] Patrick: however i would still have that little bit of a bad feeling in the back of my head
[12:38] Patrick: especially whenever i see brett again
[12:38] Patrick: how do you explain that?
[12:39] Patrick: or get rid of it, rather
[12:39] Sneeky Squared: I don't think you do.
[12:39] Sneeky Squared: And I'm not quite sure if that's better or worse than actually doing it. But I'll take the chance.
[12:40] Patrick: now i can't stop thinking about kissing you
[12:40] Patrick: i wanted to so yesterday
[12:40] Patrick: it was so sensual
[12:40] Patrick: you said just as much to me in that period of whatever that was as you have in all of our conversations
[12:40] Patrick: i don't think i've leterally ever had to catch my breath before
[12:40] Patrick: literally*
[12:41] Sneeky Squared: Taht's cute.
[12:41] Patrick: you're cute
[12:42] Sneeky Squared: I want you to put your hands all over me.
[12:42] Sneeky Squared: And play with my hair, I really like that.
[12:42] Sneeky Squared: And then put your hands on me more.
[12:42] Sneeky Squared: Wherever you please.
[12:42] Patrick: mmmm that could take awhile
[12:42] Sneeky Squared: Well do what you can
[12:43] Patrick: i want to
[12:43] Patrick: right now
[12:44] Sneeky Squared: Well if you get a chance, you should take advantage every time.
[12:44] Patrick: i will, if given the oppurtunity
[12:46] Patrick: and ps, i like that ani defranco videos from your youtube
[12:46] Patrick: i've been stalking you all morning
[12:46] Sneeky Squared: Haha, okay.
[12:46] Sneeky Squared: Well it's for looking, so have at it.
[12:47] Sneeky Squared: My youtube videos make people so mad. I've gotten so many nasty comments on almost all of them. It's hilarious. They always say "That was a waste of my time" or "stupid fucking video" or I'm called lame.
[12:47] Sneeky Squared: I just can't imagine benig so upset about an 8 second clip.
[12:47] Sneeky Squared: Haha
[12:47] Patrick: haha true
[12:48] Sneeky Squared: I'm going to put more up today, if you want to know.
[12:48] Patrick: good to know
[12:48] Patrick: i like the "i just want a good girl"
[12:48] Sneeky Squared: That one's awesome. It's got several hundred views.
[12:49] Patrick: i'll be right back, i need to use the restroom and a smart girl once told me holding it is unhealthy
[12:49] Sneeky Squared: It is!
[12:49] Sneeky Squared: Go!
[12:49] Sneeky Squared: Do you check livejournal often?
[12:51] Patrick: usually
[12:51] Patrick: but rarely update
[12:51] Patrick: how come
[12:51] Sneeky Squared: Just wondering...since you don't update.
[12:51] Patrick: yeah i've just been busy
[12:51] Patrick: well, not really
[12:52] Patrick: i got busy a while ago and never got back to updating as much
[12:52] Patrick: once things calm down i will
[12:52] Sneeky Squared: You should.
[12:52] Sneeky Squared: I'd like to see it.
[12:52] Sneeky Squared: I updated 2 days in a row!
[12:52] Patrick: well i'll be sure to
[12:52] Sneeky Squared: It says nothing profound.
[12:52] Sneeky Squared: Well, yesterday's is profound but you can't tell.
[12:52] Patrick: i just noticed that
[12:53] Patrick: why is it profound?
[12:53] Patrick: i saw it in your note too
[12:54] Sneeky Squared: Yeah, I synced those 2 sites up. I'm not sure why.
[12:54] Sneeky Squared: Anyway, it describes my situation with you to a T.
[12:54] Patrick: how's that? i'm not even in it
[12:55] Sneeky Squared: I'm not talking about the picture.
[12:55] Patrick: oh, i see
[12:55] Patrick: now i know what you meant
[12:55] Sneeky Squared: Yeah, yesterday's.
[12:56] Patrick: yeah that's pretty perfect as far as descriptions of all this goes, hah
[12:56] Sneeky Squared: I got more descriptive in my other online journal that's far far away, password protected and all.
[12:57] Patrick: that's nice
[12:57] Patrick: i wanted something like that
[12:57] Patrick: i got yelled at by people for talking about them in my journal
[12:58] Sneeky Squared: Well this one is really old. I got it back in like 2001 and used to update in it all the time. Now I just use it to spill my secrets.
[12:58] Sneeky Squared: In 2007 I only wrote in it 4 times.
[12:58] Sneeky Squared: 2008 = Twice
[12:58] Patrick:
[12:59] Sneeky Squared: Hmm. I don't think anyone else even knows it exists except you now.
[12:59] Patrick: i'm looking at all your artwork in your photo album, i really like it all
[12:59] Patrick: you use shapes well with each other
[12:59] Patrick: ooo i feel special
[13:00] Sneeky Squared: Thanks.
[13:00] Sneeky Squared: Aaaaaand good.
[13:00] Patrick: what am i gonna do with you?
[13:01] Sneeky Squared: I don't know, but I like when you say that.
[13:01] Patrick: well good, because i'll probably keep asking, haha
[13:01] Patrick: i really want to take you home with me
[13:01] Sneeky Squared: I like the tone that you alawys have when you say it.
[13:01] Patrick: hah, that sounds so barbaric
[13:02] Patrick: well i'm glad
[13:02] Sneeky Squared: I kind of want to go home with you.
[13:02] Patrick: photo 20 in amelia is amazing
[13:02] Sneeky Squared: Which one?
[13:02] Patrick: maybe i could kidnap you
[13:02] Patrick: it's of the sky
[13:03] Sneeky Squared: I'll look
[13:03] Patrick: but it's a vertical shot
[13:03] Patrick: yeah i'm not good at describing sorry
[13:03] Patrick: http://picasaweb.google.com/sneekysquared/Amelia/photo#5138069090039514930
[13:03] Patrick: oh wow, all of those are, i didn't see the next ones yet
[13:03] Sneeky Squared: I hate that that powerline got in there.
[13:03] Patrick: aww i like it
[13:04] Sneeky Squared: I like taking pictures of the sky but I need a better camera. A lot of times it's just way too shitty to capture what I'm seeing.
[13:04] Patrick: it gives a cool geometric break up to the contrast of the random beauty of the sky
[13:04] Patrick: yeah i hate when that happens
[13:04] Patrick: and columbia doesn't have much going for it, but they have great skies
[13:05] Sneeky Squared: I think it's got awful skies. Greenville has far prettier.
[13:05] Sneeky Squared: Back to the kidnapping. Caroline kidnapped me once. My dad kidnapped me. And I'm sure someone else has kidnapped me. I guess I'm extremely kidnappable.
[13:06] Patrick: i've only been in greenville at night for some shows i think
[13:06] Patrick: you're so tiny, i could put you in pocket
[13:06] Patrick: and, on a serious note, i'm sorry you were kidnapped
[13:06] Sneeky Squared: Well Caroline's was a joke and I don't remember the other. So we're cool.
[13:06] Patrick: well good
[13:07] Patrick: is caroline the one coming in today?
[13:07] Sneeky Squared: Yup
[13:07] Sneeky Squared: I hope she doesn't try to get laid. She was an awful lay anyway.
[13:07] Patrick: what time is she getting in?
[13:07] Sneeky Squared: 5 or so.
[13:07] Patrick: haha really?
[13:07] Sneeky Squared: Yeah, it was terrible.
[13:07] Patrick: cool, what are yall doing before then?
[13:07] Sneeky Squared: She was a virgin, though so I guess she has an excuse.
[13:08] Sneeky Squared: I don't know.
[13:08] Patrick: hmm, well in a little here i'm probably going to have to go shower and get ready for the day
[13:08] Patrick: i have a few friends i'm supposed to go see throughout the day
[13:08] Sneeky Squared: I'm going home soon anyway.
[13:08] Patrick: yeah i figured
[13:09] Patrick: this is sad
[13:10] Sneeky Squared: It is.
[13:10] Sneeky Squared: I'm going to do my best to see you today, even if it's just at Josh's.
[13:10] Sneeky Squared: I'll make Brett hang out there at least.
[13:10] Patrick: kinda how it always seems to go for me anyways so i guess i'm used to it. if for nothing else it's nice knowing someone as great as you
[13:11] Patrick: ok, well have to figure it out, i know josh said he was working till like 4 so he won't be home but maybe greg or something
[13:11] Sneeky Squared: Or I may just say I'm hangin' out.
[13:12] Sneeky Squared: Weird. I almost just told you I loved you.
[13:12] Patrick: well if you do decide to do that just let me know what time you're planning on so i make sure i'm available because i might be off somewhere
[13:12] Patrick: really?
[13:12] Patrick: just all of a sudden like that?
[13:12] Sneeky Squared: Hmm. I did.
[13:13] Sneeky Squared: Well I don't know ab...
[13:13] Sneeky Squared: hmm.
[13:14] Patrick: hmmm what
[13:14] Patrick: what are you pondering dear?
[13:15] Sneeky Squared: Is that even possible? Do people just go say meaningless I love you's on accident? It probably wasn't meaningless. Or was it?
[13:15] Patrick: i don't think anything is meaningless
[13:16] Sneeky Squared: I don't think so.
[13:16] Patrick: and i think it's very sweet if you're even toying with the idea of saying it
[13:16] Patrick: i didn't know computers could make me blush
[13:16] Sneeky Squared: Oh but that's so soon.
[13:16] Patrick: although i guess it's cause you're on the other end
[13:17] Patrick: perhaps, then again when you say soon it implies there's some sort of "appropriate" timeline relationships are built on
[13:17] Patrick: and fuck that
[13:17] Sneeky Squared: This is true.
[13:18] Sneeky Squared: Well if I do end up loving you, it's going to be big and you're going to be in for it. And then this is going to seem like a piece of cake.
[13:18] Sneeky Squared: In comparrison, of course
[13:18] Patrick: yes i see that
[13:19] Patrick: well, i guess we'll just have to cross that bridge when we get to it
[13:19] Sneeky Squared: Haha, but you'll have to love me back.
[13:19] Patrick: you sound cute when you say that
[13:19] Patrick: or type it rather
[13:20] Patrick: i don't want to promise i'll love you just because you say it, because that seems trite
[13:20] Patrick: but i can see myself loving in you
[13:20] Patrick: and that's good enough for me
[13:20] Sneeky Squared: S'not what I'm saying.
[13:20] Patrick: for now
[13:20] Patrick: i know
[13:20] Patrick: i'm just clarifying for clarity's sake
[13:20] Sneeky Squared: Okay
[13:20] Sneeky Squared: I can dig it.
[13:20] Patrick: haha perfect
[13:20] Patrick: well on that note, i think i'm going to say goodbye
[13:21] Sneeky Squared: Okay
[13:21] Patrick: have a lovely day, and hopefully i'll get to see you at some point
[13:21] Sneeky Squared: (Oh my. Almost said it again, FYI)
[13:21] Sneeky Squared: Okay, you too.
[13:21] Patrick: wow
[13:21] Patrick: that's pretty intense
[13:21] Patrick: and amazing
[13:21] Sneeky Squared: That's...that's something.
[13:21] Sneeky Squared: Oh what have you done to me?
[13:22] Patrick: i'm not sure
[13:22] Patrick: i think whatever it is, we're both pretty infected by it
[13:22] Sneeky Squared: Seems so.
[13:22] Sneeky Squared: Okay, well you have a great day.
[13:22] Patrick: you do the same
[13:22] Patrick: ciao bella!
[13:23] Patrick:
[13:23] Sneeky Squared: Bye!
I may be fucking with him on the love thing. Too soon to tell.
1:27 pm - Friday, Jan. 25, 2008
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